8 Months old today!!!!!!!!!!

Today my little serena turns 8 months old. It only seems like yesterday when I first held her in my arms. I remember how tiny she was, weighing only 6 pounds 11 ounces. When I first held her all I saw was those beautiful bright brown eyes staring at me making that connection a mother and daughter should have. She was just the cutest little thing. She had a head full of curly black hair, tiny fingers, tiny toes, pretty much tiny everything. WOW!! It seems like yesterday when I first saw her. When I first brought her out into the world.
Now today she is 8 months old already. and even prettier. I just love her to pieces.She knows how to make anybody smile.
The special thing about serena is she is just adorable and sweet. She really knows how to make any body smile. When you are having a rough day, a sad day, a frustrating day or anything she just brings smiles to your face. I can't even count or say how many smiles she has brought to my face on days where i was just having a bad day`
She gives the cutest little hugs around the neck and kisses on the checks. She loves playing games and laughing. She is most definitely a peoples little girl. She does not cry when a stranger holds her. For the most part she will just always glance at me to make sure I'm still around next to her.
Serena is just amazing little girl. She is growing into a beautiful smart little girl who loves doing her own thing. She picks on things quickly and love doing her own things. She is so fun to be around. The joy of our lives.
Serena has started saying dada now but would not say mama. She and Robert has this bound that just makes me happy. I love seeing them together and how they connect. She also has her two bottom teeth coming out and one on the top. I just love watching her grow up and seeing her adopt. She is also a screamer. She screams alot really loud.  She loves being sang too. Her face just lits up when you sing to her.My daughter is the best AND I LOVE HER A WHOLE LOT.
Happy eight months.

Serena eating a strawberry

Serena standing up. She is learning.

Having an oreo before bath time.

Serena and daddy at church.

My loves.. Heart and soul.

I just love these two.

Just having fun

So cute..

My weight loss journey!!

Must I say that losing weight is the hardest thing ever. From working out 6 days a week to learning how to eat healthy is alot tougher than most people think. 

I started gaining weight when I moved to the U.S. The price of fast food was just so cheap. When you come from a place where you can barely make ends meet, let alone purchase fast food and then you come to the U.S and get a burger for like a buck that is just amazing. I just started eating and eating and eating until I could not anymore. Looking in the mirror was the worst. I hated how big I had gotten. I know lots of people tried to make me feel better by telling me how good I looked but deep down i knew that this was not me. how do you  go from 125 to 180 or more so quick so soon. Then I got pregnant and after I gave birth I gained even more weight. I was just huge.

But I decided to do something about it. After so much weight gain and feeling uncomfortable in my own skin I decided that I could not, I did not want to be this big no more. So I started my weight loss journey using insanity. I started insanity On April 23rd 2012 and in the first month of doing insanity and eating healthy I lost a total of 300 pounds. I worked my butt off twice a day, six days a week and tried to eat as clean and as healthy as I can to lose weight. And let me just say that trying to  lose weight, even with exercising, if you don't eat healthy it is like a waste of time. I did not eat healthy all the time but I tried my best and I guess it worked because i did lose weight.

I am now on my 2nd month of insanity and I have not weighed or measured myself so I don't know how much i way or anything like that. But what I love is when I put on something that I had not worn for a long time, or wore when I was skinny definitely fits me. In fact I had a pair of skinny jeans I wore when I was small that I kept and now it is loose on me. That makes me smile. I don't eat healthy all the time but even when I do not eat healthy I do not stuff my face with unhealthy greasy food. I like ribs and barbecue sauce. That's my weak eating mostly if I go out to dinner with my little family. 

There were days I wanted to quit and say I'm done. Days where I wanted to work out but because of how intense I knew I would be working out just that thought made me not want to work out. Days where my body said no. But for once I wanted to start something and finish it. Just that feeling that you get that hey I did not quit makes me feel good. Now I am so addicted to working out. It is like junk food to me I have to have it. I have to work out. I honestly love working out. Not a day goes by where I don't want to work out. It is my stress reliever and my drug. It helps me clear my head and let frustration out. There are days it is hard to work out with serena but I still push through and dig deep.

 Days I do not want to eat healthy I always remind myself that it is bed. To be healthy and in shape requires healthy eating. It is hard.

Ever since I stated doing insanity it has been hard. It is still hard today but I am alot better at it. I am sore everyday but I also see the pounds shredding off and that makes me happy. Wanting to achieve a goal starts by going out there and just doing it. Sitting around or thinking about it will not help you accomplish a goal. You have to go out there and do something. Don't sit around feeling sorry for yourself but instead go out there and do something. Don't be a couch potato be a busy bee. Take full advantage of all life has to offer. Get in shape and be healthy. I love my new body. And next year if God spare I hope to have that beach body. Want to be able to go to the pool and feel comfortable.

Losing weight is a difficult journey but with perseverance, strength, a good attitude and will power you will most likely lose weight.

Yep so that's my journey.

 The day I started insanity. My before picture of how big I was.

Can't get any recent pics of my size now but this is like 2 months ago. 

 This is me after my insanity workout. I was drained in sweat. Gross but felt good because thats fat crying.

 This is another pic of me after working out. This one is like a month and a half ago.

 This is how small I was and wanting to be again.

 Let's just say I feel good about myself now and still working hard.

Many Trials may come but strength is what conquers all through Christ!!!!http://www.facebook.com/kacy.williams.14

I must say I have not been the best at making decisions. Some of my decision making has negatively affected those around me that i love and care about. But some of my decisions has also positively affected others.
WOW!!! the last past year has been really tough.Lost touch and connection..
But I'm creating this blog to keep close friends and family updated on my life and all that is going on!!!

Where do I start. Read so many blogs to see where I should start but I wanna be me on here and say what I want to say.
2011 was a really tough but great year. I was able to learn and to grow. I feel like the experiences I went through was the experiences I needed and had to have in order to finally grow up and choose my priorities. Get my head on straight. I'm sure that there were individuals who thought I was ruining my life and that I was very foolish for some of the choices I made. But I would have to disagree with them all because these very experiences made me who I am today. When I look at me and how much I have grown I am proud and I know that Heavenly Father is proud of me too. I am taking a whole new direction in my life. A direction I would not have chosen a year ago.

On August 19 2011 I got married to Robert Williams. When I first met him thought nothing much of him. It was a Sunday I went to sacrament saw him said hi, but never had the opportunity to talk to him much because I had to live. A month later I met him again. He came up to me asked me out and what do you know we were married a couple months later.
December 21 2011 our beautiful daughter serena williams was born. Such joy filled me when I found out I was having a baby. Every kick, every bit of pain, every restless night of sleep, every bit of back pain, everything was so worth it. When i saw my little princess and held there was no greater love than my love for. It just made me wanna protect her every single day of her life. My daughter is amazing and wonderful. Sweetest little girl ever. She gives kisses and hugs and just gives the cutest little looks ever. i love her so much. I love my family very much and so grateful to have them in my life could not ask for any more.

Sometimes we may not always get or have what we want but just look around and see what the Lord has blessed us with.. Some of my goals were placed on hold after I got pregnant but who said these goals will not be accomplished?? They definitely will get accomplished no matter what day it is it will. The wonderful thing about life is no matter how many obsticles come your way none of them can stop you from achieving your goals. No matter how tuff the journey keep going. I have had ups and downs during 2011 but I raised above it all and accomplished success. Nothing should stop you from achieving your success.